There is weird stuff going on. I have had a fantastic week tracking wise - well by my standards anyway! I tracked all week, exercised 6 times consisting of: 3 walk/jogs of 45mins, 2 walks of 45mins and 1 walk of 1hr 15mins. I didn't drink much (until Saturday night - whoops) and I have drunken at least 1 1/2 ltrs water/ day.
So now what? I am an emotional bomb at the moment, I'm fragile and I seem to be exploding into tears for no good reason. I'm also noticing that my mood is bordering on depressed and I can't seem to pick myself up. I'm really trying to rise above the hormones and get on with things, but I haven't felt this bad in over 4 years (before I lost weight I was really depressed - I feel the same this week). Craig is away too, which isn't helping and although I know it's not his fault, I really wish he was around to help me get through this nutso patch. I burst into tears this morning as soon as I got to work, after crying for about 2 hours last night, part of which was on the phone to mum. I had it stuck in my head that Craig was ignoring my calls (I hadn't heard from him since Friday) and worse, I thought he was deliberately not contacting me because he wanted to end the relationship. All this managed to surface in my head without logic and without any evidence. I found out this morning that his bag with phone and computer were left in the office all weekend, which is why I couldn't get hold of him, and why he wasn't returning my messages.
So now I owe him a big apology (I'm now feeling a bit humiliated about how many messages I left on his phone - the poor darl has copped an earload of desperate hormonal woman speak!) and I have embarrassed myself in the professional environment by crying in front of my client. And do I feel any better for the tears shed? Hell no! I feel heavy and bloated and sad. Just sad for myself. I have this great life, with everything going for me, but at the moment it doesn't seem to be enough to satisfy me. I hope this wave of sadness with dissipate soon.
Now, moving on from all that (thanks for listening, if you are still with me!)
I have just cooked a fab dinner for myself. I ate 4 of these little gems, but 2 would be plenty with a side salad and a small bread roll or a piece of meat. Alternatively, leave out the Goats cheese and you save 1 1/2 points.
Basil & Goats Cheese Panlettes (7.5 points for the whole recipe - Makes 4 panlettes)
Ingredients: 2 eggs, 1 egg white (extra), 1/2 tomato, 1 serve (45gs) of ham, 4 button mushrooms, 1 serve of light cheese, small crumble of goats cheese (you only need a little bit as the flavour is potent!)1/2 tsp garlic, basil, pepper.
Method:
Whisk the eggs, extra egg white, garlic, a little pepper and basil together in a small bowl. Chop the ham, mushrooms and tomato it small pieces and combine, along with the crumbled goats cheese, in a separate bowl.
Heat electric frypan (or other) to a medium heat and position 4 egg rings. Spray pan with olive oil spray quickly, including the eggrings (so you can get the panlettes out!)
Divide the egg mixture evenly into the eggrings. When the egg mixture looks about 3/4 cook, sprinkle the light cheese evenly into the rings. Wait 1 minute for the cheese to melt and add the chopped up vegies and cheese. Push the chunky bits into the egg ring and leave for a couple of minutes then carefully flip the mix over. It will be cooked in a few minutes. Carefully remove the eggrings and you are done.
To reduce the points, just lay off the cheese!
Hope you like! The ingredients could be tailored to your favourite omelet recipes.
Cath
