A little low

I'm feeling a little bit down today. I'm nervous because I have a work performance review tomorrow and while I don't want to say too much on this medium, I'm not feeling confident. I have been writing my list and trying to identify my achievements and weaknesses and while this isn't all that confronting, putting it all in writing makes me feel anxious. I am by no means suggesting I've not met goals, or haven't done my job correctly, because I have, but I'm not entirely happy in my position and admitting it to my employers is going to be a little difficult. Once you acknowledge these things, they don't tend to go away.

That aside, I am having a low day all round and it feels like there is no balance in my world. My head can play games with me at times and I try to stay conscious of it all so I can control my reactions to things. I don't always win.

One little joy today, the present my boy got me turned up today (from Strawberry.net) - a 100ml refillable bottle of Angel (my favourite perfume) with a card that said "for my angel". He said he was feeling cheesy the day he bought it. I will take all I can get ;-). I've also signed up to give blood sometime soon. I keep meaning to do it, but now I'm on the register.

Food wise, I stuck to the plan today, and I'm feeling a bit reluctant to give up the Light n Easy food given that it has really helped get me back in the weight-loss zone. I have to cancel it tomorrow, but might pick it up again when my boy goes interstate for a few weeks.

I walked to the station and back today, I've found my mp3 player again so have some music to walk along to. I'm planning to go to the gym tomorrow morning and work off a little of this anxiety before I face the music tomorrow.

In other news, here is a photo of the boy and I at a wedding I was recently bridesmaid at. I adore the dress, we had them made. I felt so confident wearing it and I'm hoping we have a ball or something to go to sometime soon so I can wear it again (the boobies are built-ins!)

The week that was

It's Sunday. I always get a little depressed on Sundays. The fun bits are over and I have to get up early for work tomorrow. This is the norm for everyone, but the routine isn't sitting well with me at the moment. I desperately want a break. From everything. It's not a practical idea, nor is it going to be a solution to anything, but right now I just feel like escaping the routine will make me feel less overwhelmed by it.

I weighed in this morning and got a surprise. I have been eating to the plan all week, and exercising most days, but yesterday I got a bit carried away and ate well over my allocated food: all after dinner too, consuming a bottle of wine, a schooner of beer, a club choc bar & 4 meatballs (which I cooked for my boy after I had eaten as I was bored). So I was surprised to show a significant loss of a kg since last week. Hit the 67s... haven't been there in ages.

Sadly, I've probably undone it already, indulging in a massive serving of french toast & maple syrup with berries. It was yummo - Mary and her partner generously shouted us a birthday brecky. Very nice, I think it'll keep me going until tonight's BBQ. I'm glad I walked this morning!

I have spent way too much $$ this month, I've decided one of the skirts I bought last week doesn't fit well, so I'm taking it back on Monday. I'm also cancelling Light n Lazy as although I love the convenience, I really should be establishing good habits on my own again. I just have to learn what I can and can't freeze and get back into the kitchen on the weekend.

Anyhow, a few chores to do before we go out tonight so will get on to them. My goal for this week is to loose 500g, so that will take me down to 67.4. Wish me luck!