Blatant Self Promotion
Don't know where to start off today. I can't even think of a title for this post at the moment. Hopefully I'll be inspired as I write more. My head is all over the place at the moment - I''ve still got heaps of work on and really need to be able to 'switch off' from it at night so that I return each morning feeling refreshed but there don't seem to be enough hours in the day. It has been a busy few months for Phase Creative! (There's my title!)
I had a bit of a mini internal breakdown last night. Sorry if that sounds exaggerated but its TTOM so I figure I'm entitled to a little drama. I have several irrational paranoias/fears about things and they get worse when I am home on my own. First and worst one is Spiders. I'm more afraid of spiders than anything else, and this week those fears have been keeping me from having a good nights sleep. The other weird one this week is a fear of the apartment catching on fire and me not being able to find the keys to get out the door (the whole place is barred up so the only way out is through the door, which is locked with a key from the inside). I am struggling to keep these two thoughts out of my head but bad stuff keeps drifting in and intruding on my normal sleep. I think it's because the boy is away, but I really wish I could think about other things.
Other than spiders and fire, I've also been dreaming about work, and deadlines. Pretty pathetic hey!
On that note, I really can't wait till CB is home. His mum arrives to stay with up on Sunday but he won't be home until Tuesday night. I've decided to go and stay with my parents for the weekend, being fathers day and all. I know my mum would love to come for a walk with me - I need the exercise at the moment.
Back to business: I haven't lost any weight over the last 4 weeks. I don't think I've gained any either, well not much anyway! I'm going to weigh in on Sat morning, and then have Brekky with Mary before I head up to the mountains. Mum and Dad are both watching their food intake at the moment so it shouldn't be too bad.
Anyway, I've prattled, prob too much. Enjoy the rest of the week folks.
P.S Miss Jesse - your comment has kept me smiling all afternoon. Thanks for sharing!
posted by Cath @ Wednesday, August 31, 2005
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4 Comments:
It is so difficult when you are used to having someone in the house with you at night and then you are on your own. Can't suggest much re the spiders except to say that if you see one and you are there alone you have no option but to kill it - I used the insect spray and the vacumn cleaner !!! Why don't you keep the door key next to your bed - that was you know you will be able to get your hands on it in an emergency.
Hope you manage to get your head into the right space soon - there is nothing worse than feeling out of sorts.
Take care and have a great weekend with your folks. Be good and hang in there !
Me
Sorry you aren't having much fun on your own. Have a nice time with your parents. Don't worry about your weight, at least you haven't put any on.
I am so impressed with Phase Creative! I think you have a really good head and lots of talent. Now onto the irrational thinking. So much of what you right about, I can totally relate to. My partner has slowly got me to realise that I just need to let things go. Let things go Cath or you will be forever worrying, like me and then it gets in the way. It's not pathetic but it can get in the way of you doing things. Next time you get a little crazy, go have a shower or something. That's what I do to shake those moods and it seems to work.
Can't wait to catch up with you on Saturday. I hope I am better by then. I won't be in for a loss but it'll be fun to go along with you. We should probably stay for the meeting yeah??
You and Mary sound like naughty school girls planning to skip class early. LOL. That's just fantastic.
I have the same fear about fire. I quite often worry about things that are quite obscure when I am tired or extra stressed. I think staying with your parents is an excellent idea. They would love the company and you can get some rest :)
Have a great weekend.
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