Having trouble maintaining focus

I have had a crazy fortnight and today feels like the first break I've had to relax a little bit. The reason for the craziness - I have taken on an extra client to 'fill' two spare days. That's all cool except that I also won an 'on the side' job at the same time, which meant I've been trying to fit 8 days work into 5. This has become quite exhausting. I'm not complaining - it's great to have more $$, but it has certainly taken it's toll on my body - and mind.

Mostly the latter, I feel like I'm out of control again, unable to take charge of my eating and indulge in my healthy habits. Instead I've been eating on the run, compromising what I want for 'anything that will stop my headache and stomach rumbling' and then binging on naughty stuff at night. I've eaten practically a whole pack of family assorted biscuits this week! I feel like I've been a bit reckless and rebellious the last fortnight and my body is actually hurting for it.

Not much I can do now - but I do want to try to undo the damage this week. I went for a great walk today - down to the rocks and around circular quay then all the way back up to Broadway where I had parked my car. I needed think time. I used to do this walk every weekend, now I'm lucky to do it once every 3 or four months. Doing the city to surf the weekend before last (took me and mum 148 mins to finish the 14kms) made me realise that I should try and find the time again.

CB is away all week. I dropped him off at the airport at 5 and he's just txt me to say he's arrived and picked up the car etc. I still feel a bit vulnerable in the house on my own at night, but I find I get a lot more done when he isn't home. I also eat better.

After I dropped him off , I went to the supermarket and bought a whole bunch of healthy dinner and lunch type food. I also bought some girly pick-me-ups: New razor blades, face cleanser and hair dye. We have a special dinner to go to this Friday night and I plan on being a new woman by then!!

Well that's my little bit for today. I don't know if I'll get a chance to blog again this week, but hope everyone else is well and staying healthy!