"Dim your headlights" takes on a whole new meaning...

Yes folks, it was bloody cold at 6 am this morning - and I was there freezing my tits off!! (sorry, forgot to mention language warning on this post!) Despite the fact the boy was flying out to Brissy for a week, I sacraficed our last hour's cuddling time to go for a walk and I think I actually enjoyed it. I practically slept in my walking gear though, didn't want it to be too hard to get out of bed!!

I am having a bad evening of cravings tonight, and am trying really hard to keep my mind off chocolate (doh! bad brain...). I know it's hormonal but I'm considering going to bed early so that I go to sleep and don't have to think about it anymore!

I have weigh in tomorrow. I'm feeling positive about it, but worry that my motivation will slip early again. I'm desperate to maintain my focus! I have done a shitload of walking this week though, and haven't blown my points, so according to the rules, I should be expecting a loss of some kind.

I wonder if my body has decided that it can't lose weight as well as I did the first time round. I remember the hardest bit being the last seven. And what do you know, that's what I'm dealing with again.

I also wonder why it is that some people can gain weight so quickly, and others can easily maintain their weight with little to no effort. An example, I went away with my partners family for 2 weeks, and while I wasn't an angel, I didn't have the cakes and bickies the family bought, or the lollies, or the alcohol. Nor did I have softdrink, sugar in my coffee or butter on my bread. I also went for long walks in the morning to try and makeup for all the bbq food we were eating. Yet that alone saw me putting on 4kgs in 2 weeks, while the rest of his family ate everything and stayed the same, and did heaps less exercise.

I just don't get it...

Anyway, I'm feeling a bit emotional and jaded tonight, and I really really really want dark chocolate (CLUB, my fave!). but I'm going to swallow the thought only, and go to bed early.

Happy Monday folks. XOX